Kinda feels like I'm in the Land of Oz.... everything is topsy turvy. My lazy days have given way to sleep deprivation once again, stress of many kinds, and trying to maintain my marriage and my house in the midst of it. And it's only been 2 weeks! Oh, and I was asked to be in 2 different performances in June, which is fantastic, but means extra rehersals and now the stress of trying to lose this weight on top of everything else. I know the universe is putting this out to see if I will finally stand up, and take care of my needs first for once. Not stretching myself thin, trying to please everybody like I normally do. I refuse to do a mediocre job at a bunch of things this time. Dance is important becuase I need it to stay sane. School is important because I don't want to have to pay back the GI Bill if I fail. Babysitting is important because I truly do love all those kids, and the moms......but I think sometimes a couple forget that I have a life outside of taking care of their children. So babysitting drops to the back of the pack, which makes me feel terrible, like I'm letting people down. But then I have to remind myself that I have been struggling these past couple weeks just to get everything done, not getting done with homework until about 1am, then staying up until about 3am winding down from the adrenaline pumping to get me through studying. Then my husband's alarm goes off at 4am lol. Sigh. Looking for the flying monkeys at this point.......oh! There goes one now!
It'll fall into place at some point, I know it will, but until then..........Anybody seen the Scarecrow, Tinman and Lion? Cuz damn if I don't need to find the wizzard to get me back home, and quick!
Peace y'all
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